Well, for the first time since December 2006, for 22 whole hours I (thought I) was neither pregnant nor nursing. Then half-way through un-loading the dishwasher one Tuesday morning a few weeks ago, I decided to go take my routine monthly pregnancy test...and SURPRISE!!! The "+" appeared in approximately .37 seconds. After spending the better part of an hour and a half laughing uncontrollably (what else could I do?!), I took a deep breath and began to process what I had just discovered.
It has been a long month of keeping it quiet, but also a good chance for J and I to get excited and let the news sink in for us before sharing the news with our family. I have been exceptionally horrible with words lately, and have somewhat fumbled when talking with family and a few close friends about the pregnancy. My heart hurts and longs for my precious friends who are wanting little ones of their own so badly they can taste it, and I think part of what I have been feeling could almost be described as shame and hurt over having to tell them that I am expecting again. KNOWING their amazing hearts, I know that my feelings are certainly unbased, and I also know that the Lord is in control. And His timing is perfect. And I am trusting Him with this pregnancy...and those of my sweet friends, both those pregnant and those longing to be so.
So, for those I've totally stumbled over the words with, I'm sorry. For those of you who heard from text messages or emails (or, um, this blog post!), I'm also sorry for that. Again...I haven't exactly been the best with words lately and I have weakly (well, exhaustedly) taken the easy way out.
But I am SO excited to be going down this road (for the LAST time...3 homemade Chandler babies is all I'm going to carry!) and am so thankful to have you to go down this road with us. So, here's Baby Will, helping me share the big news! Mark us down for the first part of June. :)